I stood in the bathroom this morning, kinda freaking out a little.
There may or may not have been tears....but I'll never tell. :-)
I think the cold, and the dark, and the gloomy winter has finally completely taken control over my body. I normally LOVE the winter. The cold, the snow, the crisp air....but this year I just want it to gone.
In the 30 some years of my life, that's the first time I've ever said those words.
I'm sick of wearing 17 layers just to run 3 miles. By the time I gear up, I feel like I should be going into battle, not just for a leisurely run.
I miss starting off in the dark, and being able to watch the sun rise as I finish my run. I miss being able to drink from my water bottle without it being slushy and nearly frozen. Frozen eyelashes were fun and a novelty the first dozen times....but now the cold water dripping in my eyes as they melt is getting old.
A year ago, I was still only able to run on the dreadmill. ANY distance running outside was horribly painful. In May, my docs and therapists finally fixed me up.
So, when I had to cut my run short last night at only 1.5 miles....I had a flashback.
Same pain in my legs....same frustration.....same urge to go home, curl up in bed and hide.
I went home defeated. I did a little deep tissue massage on my legs....but I'm not a masochist, so it probably didn't do much good. I iced them dutifully.
I had trouble walking down the stairs today....so it didn't do much good.
I have a half marathon in 8 weeks....and I can't run a mile. According to my math, I'm about 12.1 short.
I got online the minute I arrived at work, and searched for sports massage therapists in the area. I'm anxiously awaiting their reply. Those massage sessions hurt like nothing in the world...but it's time to bite the bullet and get it done. And if I like them, I'm going to set up a standing appointment.
So, anyway, there I was standing in the bathroom this morning....kinda mentally freaking out a little.
Normally, on a bad day I'll go for a run to get some of the stress out. What do I do when I'm stressed about not being able to run?
Contract killing could be fun. (giggle)
45 min weight in the am
1.5 mile run in the pm (10:56 overall average pace)